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Name: Jeff
Location: Arkansas, United States
Birthday: 9/23/1986
Gender: Male
Interests: computers, psychology, writing, driving around aimlessly, inhaling harmful particles into my lungs at an alarmingly high rate, finding cool people in this small town, and doing a whole lot of nothing!
Expertise: Being a crazy ass. Why do you think the name's Carp?
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AIM:  i8degrees
Member Since:
6/27/2003
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| 2006 kawasaki vulcan 500 =)
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| I want to express how extremely happy I am right now =) Alas .....
I am very close to landing a full-time job (40 hours a week ...
~$1400/month ... 8 am to 5 pm) _in_ Fayetteville. It's
almost too good to be true, but maybe I am going to get the break of my
life! Not only will I have an extremely good reference with the
part-time computer stuff I'll be doing (network administration,
real-time business scale), I'll have experience with CAD, and that can
get me a future job in any city at any time (the demand is high).
Yes, the company is in the business of land surveying. They are
expanding rapidly and desperately need more team members, as well as a
computer tech guy. My brother-in-law works there and through a
series of events that have happened in this past week, I am coming very
close to having the job. A job with no worries of getting laid
off ...
I'll be able to move out (which I indefinitely will do) of my parent's
house again, and this time, know exactly what I'm doing, and how to do
it. I'll be able to live by myself if I want, even. I'll
relive the days that I miss so much now. Control,
responsibility, and freedom. Sure, I have freedom right now, but
not on the scale that I feel like I did when I was out of the
nest. Oh, I hope to the heavens I land this job ...
I think that if I get lonely up there all by myself, I'll just start
enticing people from Fort Smith to drive up here on the weekends, by,
oh, let's say ... plentiful sacks of marijuana? =) Hell, I
know they won't come visit me just because they miss me, lol =/
I still want to go to college, and this opportunity, if given, will
strengthen the ability to do so. I'll work for a year or so, and
then go part-time w/ CAD and go to school, with help from my
parents. For anyone that doesn't know ... landing a
full-time computer job is difficult in this area for reasons I won't go
into. I would prefer that I wasn't slaving around computers all
day, anyway.
For everyone that reads this ... pray that I get this job
=) I've always wanted to move up to Fayetteville. Fort
Smith has nothing to offer me and the future in Arkansas lies in the
Fay-area ...
I have to keep on reminding myself that I'm only 18. I'd still be
a senior in high school if I hadn't dropped out. If I land this
job, how many other 18 year olds out there have been lucky enough to be
given this route?
Hehe, I have a job nonetheless ... I'm working part-time ($100 a
week, no taxes) at Lytehouse Computer Solutions ;O ...answering
calls, fixing computers, on site help, etc.
I know that if I can push myself far enough, I can have anything in the world I want .... well, besides love =(
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| I love my new car. It's my first real car. Many good
memories have been with the Sentra, but alas, out with the old, in with
the new.
Honda Accord 93' LX
Yummy. It is a 4 door car w/ automatic windows and locking.
I forgot how nice all of these basic things are. Perfect
condition inside and out.
My favorite thing about the car is that it ain't no automatic
transmission. I only wish now that I had my sister's Civic that
is a two door and w/ a sun roof ;(
I thought that midnight cruises were fun, but when you got yourself the
ability to shift up and down, everything just becomes bliss.
I can't wait 'till I get a sound system in there ^_^
Believe it or not, I've become a better driver through having to drive a stick. I still have a thirst for speed =P
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| she's so pretty ... so free spirited and thought provoking
... so inspiring in the ways i forgot a human could be ...
she made me remember a part of me that was lost through the years due
to such rapid changes in my life ... i forgot who i was, you
could say? i wish i knew what that meant. she's so ... no i
know perfection is only minute, that perfection is so fickle that it
becomes a concept as quickly as it is is brought into reality ... the
circumstances are perfect. my thoughts on the belief that things
happen for a reason, are surely confirmed. she's that imaginary
girl that you always dream of one day meeting, but know deep down, that
she's a fantasy and you have to settle for far less ... it's too
good to be true.
it's too good to be true. this is what i'm afraid of.
perfection is minute and a subtle word or gesture destroys the reality
of it and sends it back into a mere concept. a fantasy is never
allowed to come true, but is this not true? is she not
real? i see her with my own two eyes, and surely enough ...
i see everything i've only been able to see deep inside my mind.
i've said many a time that a body has no value, but this is not
true. i never realized that a body is directly connected to one's
mind in more ways than words describe. she has the mind that only
existed in a pure fantasty. my two eyes are seeing the physical
representation of who that person is. the beauty of it all coming
together in a blink of an eye is blinding. blinding to my own
eyes, to my own logic, to my own simple mind. i'm so afraid to
touch this representation of what could only be in a fairy tale because
one's mind is so fickle. she could very well be non existant in
seconds from now. my mind can not bare seeing a fantasy become
real (with my own two eyes) and then simply vanishing. but
perhaps ... just perhaps ... it's better to have seen it,
to felt it, to know it's possible that it really can be true, the
representation of something so minute, so long lasting.
i can promise nothing.
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| This weekend ruled.
Friday? Fun times spent remembering about how much fun the old
days were as I was watching Mason play Final Fantasy VIII for a few
hours straight. Not to metion the fun the usual cooking of a
quick lil dinner consisting of grilled cheese and whatever else I have
for Dani to eat! 
Saturday? Nice quiet day. I worked the majority of the day
at Double Clicks so the day went by fast ... hung out with the
usuals and layed around.
Sunday? Hardcore. We found out that ice really is
addicting. I bet we spread quite a few germs that night
;x I shook on a pact not to say a single word about the
night, but oops. Fun times, guys, fun times. I'm finished
up the night by having a lil adventure going to Wal-Mart and getting
cookie mix and cooking me and Jeff (Isbell) chocolate chip
cookies! Yummy! The night ends with me cleaning dishes and
doing a lot of apartment cleaning related bs.
I'm sorry that I'm so vague ;P I hate writing about what I do on the weekend... as if anyone really cares to know.
(Actually, I'm not sorry in the least bit ... if you wanted to know how my weekend was, you'd already know!)
Now, go post comments that relate absolutely nothing to this entry. Thank you for your time and please go away.
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